Book excerpt: This book displays my severe confusion on my own sexual orientation starting at the young age of twelve years old not totally understanding myself or my place in life until the age of fifty years old. I also write about my personal struggles with homophobia from others, verbal abuse (both mentally and physically), society labeling, and raising my two loving daughters through some very turbulent, trying years. In addition, I tackle my suicidal thoughts, the death of both my parents, and the family values learned. I also explain what it is like living with AIDS daily, dealing with the stigma from AIDS, my strength, my sheer determination of never giving up and taking full responsibility for my own life without blaming anyone.