Book excerpt: When a Phoenix falls it turns into ashes. My childhood I lived in my ashes. I needed to break free from the torture I was going through. Alone and afraid I had to find ways to survive. No one saw my fake smile or my truthful eyes. My life spiraled down in my teenage years. I wanted too end it all and forget this world as things got worse.. Everyone loved my monster and left me in the cold bitter dark. I needed to rise alone.