Book excerpt: As I stare at the sky and wonder, why am I here? Why is the world spinning and I feel left out? I have gone through so much losing loved ones, wearing a fake smile to cover up the pain. And, as I take one step forward, I slip back two steps. I have gotten up and dusted the dirt off my shoulders and decided I am going to make it. I am determined to see the sunshine. I am on a journey. I am reminded after the rain has washed away my tears, that there is always sunshine after the rain.