Book excerpt: Marie Etienne's new collection of essays is fast-paced, heartfelt, and brutally honest. At 43, recently diagnosed as bipolar and on the brink of suicide, Etienne struggles to come to terms with deep-rooted feelings of fear, shame, and resentment by facing head-on who she really was, who she wanted to be, and what she was willing to do to make her life worth living. Etienne explores themes of love versus lust, the legacy of murder and suicide among her siblings, and the redemptive powers of faith, forgiveness, and courage. This story reveals the unstoppable drive of a woman determined to forge her own path through the world.