Book excerpt: Losing her the first time damn near killed me.We were kids then, crazy in love. Her dad found out, and just like that I was shipped back to college early. No goodbye, nothing.After that, I always found an excuse to stay away. Nothing short of my dad's cancer could've brought me back to town. Now I find out I have a child, one that was kept a secret from me.I'm pissed. I'm hurt. I'm confused.And I can't get Ari off my mind.The woman she's become, so beautiful and strong. An artist who put her life on hold to support her child-our child. All those years ago, we broke each other's hearts. We lost everything.Can we ever get it back?Is it too late for a second chance with my first love?Or will Santa bring me everything I've ever wanted this Christmas?