Book excerpt: A dark, brutally honest, and sometimes sordid voyage, written with a wired, savage voice, into the promiscuous heart of a gay/Queer and hyperactive/ADHD outsider who has internalised a world of pain, but still finds himself, standing, still surviving... "don’t freak if this all goes horribly wrong: it’s fine…" Trigger warnings run their gauntlets everywhere, but there are moments of beauty and sorrow, which is beauty in another guise... "don’t see my eagerness, my tears, or if my eyes blank: it’s fine…" Not for the faint-hearted perhaps, this collection jumps frenetically from elegiac tributes for queer heroes to self-destructive sexual acts in a kind of shadowy no-place and no-time, confronting casual encounters, abuse and queerphobic hate towards a poetic self attempting to act as an antenna for Queer suffering everywhere... "don’t stop: I’ll be your willing sacrifice…"