Book excerpt: Rich with boyhood remembrances of the Pacific Northwest of the 1970s through the 1990s, I Have Not Loved You With My Whole Heart is a memoir of trauma, healing, faith, and violence, told in overlapping personal essays that pull the reader through turning points in a household crowded with dysfunction, and toward the healing that comes after reconciliation. At the book's center is a conflicted and contradictory relationship between the author and his father, the Rev. Renne Harris, a heavy-handed, alcoholic, Episcopal priest who came out in the height of the AIDS crisis and died of HIV in 1995, but not before finding a measure of peace and acceptance.