Book excerpt: For sometime I’ve been clean and at times it has been hard but I think about my love for me and know that I can ́t and refuse to fall back into that self pity state of denial and that now I understand that it ́s not about me also there ́s a saying that is so true which say ́s in order to keep what you got you must give it away I hope this will help someone or some body ́s out there that ́s beginning to realize that life is bigger than they are and more important to someone else other than you thank you for time